SAD DAY

WOW, what an afternoon! I got a call from Jon this afternoon that one of our dear friends had lost their precious 3 month old. Dustin and Rachel Creswell are great friends of ours and I had the joy of being pregnant a couple of months with Rachel. We talked about the joys (the few there are. haha) and the rough times of being pregnant. We had several of the same problems, as most women do. The CONSTANT heartburn, the feeling like the baby is going to kick through your tummy and the wonderful sound of your baby's heartbeat for the first time. Today, sweet Dylan was with his babysitter and she laid him down to go make his bottle. When she came back he was not breathing, she tried CPR till the paramedics got there and they took over. They tried to get him back all the way to the hospital but failed.
Tears are streaming down my face as I write this. I can't imagine how these great parents feel. One day they have a perfectly healthy baby and the next he is gone. Addie was at my mom's when I heard this devastating news so I rushed over to get her, I had to hold her and kiss her. Sometimes I take her for granted, like when she wakes up in the middle of the night and I go in there, so tired, and she is sitting up like, "hey mom, are you ready to PLAY?". I sometimes find myself irritated at her for waking up, but I always smile, tell her I love her and gently rock her back to sleep. How awful of me to be upset when my baby wakes up in the middle of the night. I'm sure Rachel and Dustin would give anything for that. I hate that this happened to them. I just don't understand why God lets things like this happen to people like them and then the 14 year old or the woman with 15 kids who can't support another one have healthy babies everyday. WHY?? It really isn't fair. I know that God has a plan and everything happens for a reason but Man, I wish he could just let us know why sometimes. I guess this is one of those times where we really have to trust him and have faith that everything is going to be okay. Dylan is really in a better place.
We can't understand things like this. But we also can't question God. We can use this as a way to build our faith, it isn't easy, but we can. One of my favorite verses is Philippians 4:13, which I'm sure you all have heard before but it really relates to almost everything in life. Paul wrote in his letter to the Philippians, " I can do everything through Christ who gives me strength." And we can, we have to trust God with everything we have and he will get us through the hardest of times. Please keep the Creswell's in your prayers.